First Goal Met....

I made a goal of 30 lbs in 3 months... well it's 81 days and it is 30.6 lbs lost.... my blood sugar is down almost 10 points....putting me in a normal high range, but not the PRE-DIABETIC range... I feel great and I'm wearing a smaller size!  What more can one be happy about?  Well....

It's Cherry Season!!!!!!!!

This weekend I ate a bowl of cherries for a lunch- they were awesome... I never got one tart cherry. Cherries are low in carbohydrates - like the strawberries, blueberries, etc.  They'll also "clean your system" - - - if you know what I mean!!!!  Full of good stuff - I can't wait to buy more.

With our temperatures up into the blazing 90s and hot winds blowing, it's disgustingly miserable, one's appetite can kind of disappear.  Regardless of being in A/C - it's almost as if your body still knows it's an OVEN outside and you get tired, and you get very thirsty, and you lack the desire to eat anything heavy  - - - fruit becomes the best choice for me!  Crisp, clean eating - cool and refreshing...

A Mother's Love....

"The truth is a mother and her child are not separate entities. A child is a part of the mother in every aspect. He literally comes out of her body, they are created from her very own egg, in the womb he partakes of the same food. A child is a mother’s life walking outside, an extension. In fact, a mother achieves immortality through her child. She lives on beyond her own years through that child. She rejoices in seeing her child outdo her because she is not competing against him. You cannot compete against yourself." ... from OmSwami.com

What did my son write in my card for Mother's Day?

"Thank you for being such a strong and amazing woman"  and "Thank you for being so loving and always there and so supportive of me"...

I would move Heaven and Earth for my child...if I could...  

My love for my child is indescribable.  I only know that he "knows" that I love him... regardless of if I'm annoyed, hurt, or disappointed - regardless of whether I'm elated at his success in whatever he is doing, happy, and proud of him - regardless of what is happening in our lives... 

There was never a moment in his life that I did not want him; there was never a moment in his life where I was not worried for his safety and concerned for his well-being and doing anything and everything to make sure he never did without... I'm not perfect, but nobody nor anything is... and nothing can diminish or belittle or undermine the love I have for my child.

My love has never faultered for my child.  I've gone above and beyond never lashing out at him in anger in a way to destroy his sense of my love for him.  He grew up without ever doubting, without ever feeling any concern, that I might not love him.  All I have to say is "You know what?" and he says "You love me"... 

I know that when he marries and has children of his own, that my love will be the creation of the wonderful husband and parent that he will one day be.... and that love I have had for my child will be passed on to his wife and children.  One day he will say to his child "You know what?" and the child will smile up at him and say "You love me"... 

Sadness....

Edited...

This was a vent ..... and I learned a good lesson about venting in public.

But I do love this below.... and will keep it here....

My Best Friends & I
by Karen L. Schenk

Throughout the years
I have had many different girls and women as my best friends.
They have all been very different from each other.
Yet somehow they have all been similar.
They had characteristics that blended with mine.
They were kindred spirits with me —
they were truly the soulmates of my life.

Together, these best friends and I
have laughed, cared, talked, listened, and cried.
Together we played, worked, and dreamed.
Such special friends were they, that at times,
we enjoyed doing nothing together.
Years have gone by
and I sometimes wonder
where they have all gone.
Some have moved.
Some developed different interests.
These were friends whom I once thought
I could never live without.

The best friends of my life
have had an integral part
in me becoming who I am today.
They brought out the best and the worst in me.
They loved me enough to confront, to challenge and to console.
They encouraged me in my strengths and
helped me overcome my weaknesses.

Though I know not where they live,
have discovered where they all left something for me.
It is a room — a delightful room which lies within my heart.

It is one of my most favorite places.
I go there when I am lonely, sad
or when I want to remember… and be with
the treasured golden memories
the best friends of my life left for me.

Forever — my friends will be a part of me
as I hold onto and cherish them
in that special room in my heart.

"Among the changing months, May stands confest The sweetest, and in fairest colors dressed." ~ James Thomson

It's a beautiful day for a May Day!    It's also the beginning of a very busy and social weekend... tomorrow I have a huge wedding and reception to attend... and Sunday I will be with friends celebrating my birthday, and Monday I will be off work to spend the day going to movies and out to eat somewhere fun with my son....

I've already received wonderful gifts and cards and well wishes ....

And the best part is I feel great, I'm healthier, and I'm ready to get out and party!!!!!!!!

Happy May Day!!!!!!!

April Showers.....

Seen lots and lots of rain this month... and that of course means, lots and lots of critters - millipedes came into the house because they were seeking dryer ground... how gross is that?  Mosquitoes galore - which means the little green tree frogs are outside my windows every night singing and shouting at each other.  Raymond, my new resident Bull Frog, greets me the moment I walk outside on the patio... I find it astounding how loud such a tiny creature can be...

Work has been so busy, I get in early in the morning, and I leave in Mid/Early evening... it's starting to calm down, finally... my weekends are packed with chores and errands and a few fun things, like shopping for shoes... the good thing is that I'm fitting into smaller clothes, I have not been sick, I'm full of energy, I feel great, people around me notice that I'm healthier and feeling better and are full of compliments, and life goes on.... AND my son is looking really good - he's trimming down really quickly... and it's boosting his ego!  He needs a good boost!!!!

Oh Beautiful Spring....

This weekend was quite chilly in the 60s and windy, and the skies were blue and sparkly.... Perfect March weather!!!  Great weather for Kite Fliers!!!!  I opened all the windows and doors to my home, and aired it out, cleaned, and relaxed and watched old movies (1940s-1950s)... and of course, cried... when I watched "Journey for Margaret" with Robert Young... oh my gosh, just to even think of it brings a tear to my eye... I am a ninny... the kid and I also watched "The Blue Gardenia" with a 36 yr old Raymond Burr!  It was pretty good - the end fooled us!!!!!

Today is breezy, but in the high 70s... so bright, cheerful, and here I am in an office... but I made sure at lunch time to go out and be out in the air and sun...even if it was for a few minutes....   now it's time to head off to visit the vampires, so they can tell me how good my blood is... so much fun!!!!

Feeling Blessed....

I'm not inclined to say things related to religion much...or really discuss things about my spirituality... but, every now and then those little bits and pieces of my heart and soul sing out and remind me that there's a bigger picture...

Today it started with waking up bright and early this morning - feeling like I was on top of the world.... just Habibi and I curled up together... reminded me of  Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany's...

When I left the house I was so happy to find out that the awful eyesore, broken down truck outside my condo (it's been bothering me), was gone!  I had written the Association and asked them to have it towed - I guess someone actually got my message and listened...

I went to get gas, and found out that I had $0.25 off per gallon of fuel reward discounts available on my card - so to fill my empty tank only cost me $26.00!!!!

The news was saying the traffic was horrendous, there was a gloom in the sky, gray, chilly, wet, and that misty rain that's not enough to be rain - just a fine mist... so I thought, hmmmm, let me check out the lines at the NEW Starbucks that opened right around the corner from my home - and LOW AND BEHOLD - I was the second in line!!!!!  I got a Trenta Iced Green Tea and drove off with a big grin...

Everyone seems pretty at ease today at the office... no bad 'tudes... It's an easy day - a busy day - but relaxed ... lovin' it!!!!!

My friend came in (she works for my employer outside our office for a family trust)... and we had a nice chat - she left  - and then she called me and said "Oh my gosh, I'm hungry and I didn't realize it was so late - want to meet me for a salad?" - and I said YES SIRREE... and went and had a salad at Olive Garden (no croutons)... drank unsweetened iced tea... and we talked and talked about our kids and nice things, and I just felt so relaxed and happy.... what a nice way to break up the day!!!!!

I had someone nonchallantly say something about my having lost weight, etc.  I have been very careful NOT to speak about weight loss... my way of eating is benefitted with weight loss, but my main concern is to be HEALTHY ... and to FEEL GOOD... and I'm on my way... I have a ways to go on finding myself in perfect health, if there is such a good thing, but today I feel "blessed" to be happy, relaxed, and I FEEL WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!

I hope this lasts more than a day!!!!!

P.S.  Now if only a Gary Cooper clone would come sweep me off my feet.... he was just the epitomy of a beautiful man....